Yesterday I was at work, when I got a text from my wife Laurel saying that our 2 year old Nova June wasn't feeling well. She sent me a photo of her laying on the couch, which is a rare sight in the world of this busy adventurous little girl.
I texted my co-worker Jacob, who is the lead pastor of our church, and asked if he could cover for me in the evening- as I was slated to share a video and highlight a thought from it at our Summer Mid Week Service.
This video was 14 minutes long, and it was based on the last few verses in the book of Ephesians, which was a good written by the apostle Paul, who dedicated his life to teaching new groups of believers how to live a life based on Jesus Christ's example and teachings. Often these new groups of believers had varied cultural or religious backgrounds, so it was a struggle for them to know how to love one another.
The last part of the letter to the believers living in Ephesus, was on Spiritual Warfare. Paul must have thought this was imperative to the church there surviving. One of the insights in the video based on these verses was:
"If dependence is the objective, then our weakness is our strength."
That line widened my eyes, and opened my mouth into a "ooooooooo".
So from Tuesday afternoon till Wednesday that line had been percolating in my mind.
Here are a few thoughts I had during the percolating:
The Bible references quite a few times about strength found in weakness. Strength being found in weakness doesn't make sense initially, but with further study into what God really means by that, it becomes so true.
I often feel like living in this world, weakness is exploited, taken advantage of and beaten down.
In order to depend on something, if required a level of humility. It requires a level of surrender that I cannot do this on my own. A confession of inadequacy.
Like the verses in Ephesians 6:11 says:
"Put on all of God's armour so that you will be able to stand firm against the devil."
Depend on God. Depend on the Holy Spirit, which enters your being when you accept Jesus, and you will have a strength pour out when you feel weak.
Those are a few insights I had after reflecting on that line.
So, back to my story.
Right after I send Jacob that text, Laurel calls me telling me with concern that Nova is starting to act strange. That she is looking up, not responding to words or touch, and I sense a greater sense of worry as I hear in the background Laurel try to snap Nova out of her state.
I tell her to call our very good neighbour friend Katie, who is a nurse, and ask her.
2 minutes later, Laurel sends me a text saying:
"I might call 911."
I respond: "Do it, I'll come home!"
As I drive back home, which is about 10 minutes away, the worst thoughts go thru my mind of what I may come home to. Will she be still conscious? Will she be dead? Will there be medics trying to resuscitate Nova?
As I'm driving with these panic inducing thoughts...
"If dependance is the objective, then our weakness is our strength" comes to mind.
I'm immediately covered in a spiritual peace, that I can depend on God.
Right now, in this situation.
I then realize how He has prepared me for this moment with those verses and quote.
I hear the ambulance as I'm driving home, and as I pull up to our house to a few neighbours standing outside looking worried, I run in to see Laurel sitting on the ground in the living room, surrounded by the first responders, holding our breathing daughter, who is gently shaking, and nestled in to her mom like never before. She had had a 5 minute seizure, being spacey, unresponsive, shaking and vomiting.
I breath a sigh of relief, and a sigh of thankfulness to God for coming home to a better scene than I originally had thought.
Laurel and Nova went by ambulance and I followed behind. They ran a few tests, and figured it was something called a febril seizure, which is caused by a sudden onset of a fever.
We were home a few hours later with a very sleepy little girl.
Laurel and I prayed when she was sleeping, thanking God for sustaining her, and keeping her safe.
As I reflect on all of this, the next day, I can't help but be thankful that I know without a doubt what will happen when I, myself will die. Im going to heaven, because I believe that Jesus was who he said he was, and one of his promises is that if we believe in him, we will have eternal life.
It also makes my heart ache for Nova, that Laurel and I remain constantly growing in our faith in Jesus, that we can guide her into a relationship with him too someday!
We are also so thankful that we are called to be in spiritual community with other believers .
After Laurel and Nova went via ambulance to the hospital, I quickly texted our parents, our small group from church, my accountability bros, our pastor, and they "prayer warriorred" for us!
There is power in prayer, if the one you pray to has power.
There is power in community, especially when the community is united under our active living God.
Life would be so much of a struggle without that kind of Christian support.
If anyone reading this needs a prayer, please let me know- email me at firstname.lastname@example.org, or send me an IG message.
There is power in the one I pray to.
1 John 5:13-14: "I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us."
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